yet another blog about life, mostly about me and my fat fighting journey. This time I Hope to achieve my goal, and I hope this will keep me honest. I hope to find some solace among some of the other more established blogs and to draw strength from others. Basically I want to leech of of anyone who'll let me and work some stuff out that i really need to get off my chest e.g 20-30kg.
Saturday, January 14, 2006
new year, new me...right?
It's the start to the new year and I feel like I'm stuck in a rut. Nothing seems ok, my love life is in the dumps, my weight is at a ridiculous all time high and my job really bites. I've always thought that if I could control my weight then everything else in my life would fall into place. I haven't been able to control the weight, and it's coming to the point where I feel like I'm losing control of everything else. I keep telling myself that I've got the tools to do what I need to do but I never seem to do it. so, I'm 25 now, and have vowed that I shall not have ongoing body battles at 30 because I want to be comfortable within myself enough to enjoy the rest of my life. So this is the last time I start a new excercise and diet regimen. The last time I tell myself I can't do it. The last time I cheat on myself. This is the last time because if I don't go through with this, knowing all that I know, then I think I need to change strategies. If I can't lose the weight, then I have to find a way to be comfortable with the me that i am now.
I love my life, and sometimes I even love myself. I'm a 25yr old African girl, who's fighting the good fight along with a lot of other girls...i.e I'm in the win or lose fat fighting club. My biggest wish for myself is that one day i'll be normal...i.e within a healthy weight range. I am in the throes of one of my do or die modes, i.e if i can't lose the weight this time around, then I'll stop stressing about it. I need the blog and all of you out there to keep me on track. HELP!!! My favourite things in the world are life, family and learning new things. A mind really is a terrible thing to waste.
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