Settled

Ok, I have been away for a while now and I didn't think I would be coming back but I realise now that this is a good forum for me to be in even if I have probably lost all my readers by now. I still think it's a good place to vent. Ok, update time. I finally got my job!!! I am really loving going to work at the moment. The only thing I have ever wanted as an employee is to have a career in a field that makes it worth it to wake up in the morning to go to work...and now I have it!! I'm very excited.
On the weightloss stakes, I'm still in the race, but struggling. I'm just happy that I still have the drive to do it and I am realising how much work I still need to do and how much effort it will take to finish what I've started. I actually reached a new state in my relationship with excercise. I was a litle depressed about something today and the only think I thought would make me better is to have a really hard, long, sweaty workout. So I went to the gym and decided that I would do the spin cycle class they have on at 5.30. Ok, keeping in mind that I've only done it once before and almost killed myself, I still just went up and put my hand up to join the class. I loved it! It was exactly what I needed. I think it has a lot to do with making myself feel better by proving that I can do the hardest thing I can think of and enjoying all my efforts...best kind of confidence boost! So I think I'm a spin cycle convert, I put my name down for tomorrows class!! However, right now my head is too jumbled up to think straight, I just had an argument with B for boy so feeling like shit. I will write later as I have no wonderful insights to give now and I'm feeling a little flat.
it's good to be back.