rambling.

I actually had me a great weekend, I excercised!!! I did this ridiculous weights session on saturday, that left me absolutely knackered (tired) but invigorated...and then I actually cleaned parts of the house!! On Sunday, I got up and went for a 45min swim, that was actually really quite good considering how lazy I have been lately. Today was another weights session, I'm a bit sore, but I love that feeling because I know dormant muscles have been awakened.

On the eating front though, I'm starting to think that maybe I need to use my food scales a little more. I discovered over the week that a serving of breakfast cereal for me is 100g, when recommended serving size for my cereal (muesli...high fat but high fibre and very nutritious) is only 40g. Ok, so I tried 40g serving today, and I was stark raving hungry about 3hrs later!! So not too sure about this, but I will keep going with it cos I'm sure my tummy will learn or be forced into submission to love every single spoonfull of that 40g serving size and every other reduced portion food I feed it.

I weighed myself on my fat and water monitor scales today, I think I saw a reduction, but I'm too scared to confirm it cos I don't want to be disappointed if it's the same weight...ridiculous, non? It's just that everytime I start losing weight I sabotage myself and go into this crazy binge eating behaviour...I think I'm actually scared of losing weight cos I will not have anything to whinge about anymore and finding another crutch is just too much work.

I'd really like to thank Lynne and Alea for all their support, I hope to do the same for you. It feels good not to be the lurker in your blogs anymore. Go the fatblogs!!! Seriously though, I think without this forum, I wouldn't be as motivated as I am right now. After all, this is the last time I...