stark realization

You know the feeling when you realise your parents may just be human, you know that sinking feeling, when you realize that the people you absolutely worship may be just as vulnerable as you are? I've been having lots of those lately, it's not fun. So lately I've come to a conclusion I'm not sure I'm comfortable with. My boyfriend is not that kind of guy. The kind who's really romantic, who'll let me walk through doors first, or buy me flowers, or even run after me if I walk out in a huff or better yet not let me walk out of the door in a huff. He's not the kind of guy who even apologizes when he's wrong or yet even admits that he may actually be wrong. He's not the easiest person to be around, doesn't get along with any of my mates, doesn't want any of the things I want in life. So what kind of guy is he? The kind who is incredibly loyal, who wants nothing more than to please me (sometimes), who can be syrupy sweet, who is reliable, sensible to the point of snoredom, opinionated, honest. I think I like him because I see a side to him that other people never see, so it's my secret. I used to be a sucker for a nice guy, but being with the boy for 4yrs has changed me in ways I never imagined, some good, some bad. So is this good enough? This relationship, do I need the romance, the apologies or any of that other stuff? Surely better a man you can count on, one who you'd cut your right arm for before believing he'd cheat on you than a sappy guy who's that way with all the other girls out there...surely?

On the food front, things are still ok. I had a mini binge today...banana bread, i love the stuff. I have been good this week, and things seem to be falling into place with the eating. If only the excercise would just do itsefl, things would be great.
Have a good weekend everybody.