AAAAAAAAAAAAARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I just had a really tough day emotionally. I got told by one of my workmates who had applied for the same job as I had that she had an interview for the position tomorrow, I hadn't heard anything from my boss so I just had to assume that I was not going to be given a chance for this job. So I did the one thing I know best, I had a good old binge, not as big as I would have which is shocking, but I have an idea that the two pieces of desert that I had did a lot of damage anyway. I was so frustrated, I was walking around the lab feeling like I just needed to let out a big scream or I would go insane, I probably did go insane for a while. I just couldn't believe I'm working for a boss who wouldn't even look me in the eye and tell me that she thought I was no good for the position, I came back home to find an email letting me know that unfortunately I have not been selected for an interview for the position....she !@#% works 2 seconds away from me, like if she farts I would probably smell and hear it and she had to bother sending me an email...shows how valuable I am to that whorehouse company (sorry, sis, you can my cursing up with me later, I'm just very angry). So I came home and had a big fight and then a big cry with B for boy cos I was so angry.

Once again I have to thank him for having a good head on his shoulders. We came up with a plan. Because I am so unhappy at this job, I have to find a way for me to actually be able to do what I want to do and be happy. I have to find time to actually look for another job because as it stands I have no time to scratch my ass or indulge in any other such simple pleasures. Hopefully in a few weeks I shall have this whole fiasco sorted and will be gainfully employed, even if it's as a waitress cos let me tell you, I was heck of a lot happier doing that and getting paid well than what I'm doing now. Maybe in a few weeks I'll be singing a different tune, I will let y'all know how it goes.
Have a good one.