training partner or bust!
I have had a little trouble logging on to blogger lately...really technical trouble not just laziness, but I guess it's all good now. But off to better things, I have recruited a new helper in the weightloss scales, actually I think she recruited me. My friend asked me to help her get in shape, so we wrote up a weeks worth of excercise routines, and we are supposed to check in with each other at the end of the day to see if we stuck to our word. I actually find this helpful because I don't want to have to tell her that I didn't do anything exercise wise. So we'll see how long this actually lasts. I have had an uneventful since I last blogged, the only remotely interesting thing I did is apply for the job that I didn't really want and now I'm sitting here wondering what I'll do if I get an interview or even worse...actually get offered the job!! I doubt this will happen, but if it does I have no idea what I shall do.
Ok, my boyfriend just read this blog and he's not happy. See, the thing is he's been pestering me to let him take over my training methods, because apparently I'm not doing things right and if he was running the show then I'd be sure to have lost weight by now. So now that me and my friend are doing this checking up on each other thing he's mad that I wouldn't do it with him but I'll do it with her. I JUST DON'T NEED THIS PRESSURE!!!! I can't let him into this part of my life because I can't handle his attitude, his "I'll show you how it's done, I can make you lose weight, I'm good at this and you're not" attitude. I don't need it because quite frankly it pisses me off! He doesn't understand that telling me all this makes me feel like he thinks that I am not going to reach my goals if I don't just give up and let him tell me what to do. I don't know if anyone out there understands what I'm saying, but I'm too angry from trying to reassure him that this is really the right decision for me. Ok, an example of how bad it would be if I actually allowed him to become my exercise buddy. We have a circuit that runs behind our home. It's a really nice walk as it is in the nature reserve. This circuit that I actually discovered myself, and that I have walked on my own on many an occassion actually runs up a few hilly sections, so is quite tough, at least for me. So me and B for boy went out walking there this one morning and we start to climb. B for boy is quite a bit fitter than I am so he's going for gold on the hills and I'm trying to keep up, I don't want to lag behind, and he's pushing me even more, telling me to hurry up. I don't know what happened but all of a sudden my lungs got really hot and tight and my heart was tripping, I couldn't catch hold of my breath no matter how hard I tried and my back felt like someone had put a sack of rocks on it. B for boy thought I was just having a fat attack, he didn't even slow down for a second, thought I was just unfit and needed to be pushede a bit more. I don't know if I agree with this because I was fresh out of the gym and I'd done the circuit before. This did not feel like anything normal, it felt like something serious was going on. Turns out when I spoke to a friend about it she said the symptoms matched those of a panic attack! I don't know if this is true either but I KNOW my body did not feel like that because I was fat and couldn't hack it I KNOW this. So after this incident understandably I didn't want to do anymore exercise related activities with B for boy because I did not want to be in this situation again. I felt like he thought there couldn't have been any other explanation apart from my weight and he didn't even slow down to find out if I was alright...I don't need this from a training partner. So this is one of the reasons I do not want hime for a trainer. That and the fact that he kept saying to me "I hope that you lose weight and become fit so that that never happens again, I want to be able to do things with my girlfriend not just sit around cos she's unfit" or something to that effect. It really irks me that he thinks this of me he never seems to notice any fitness gains that I have made and to my dying day I shall testify that what happened to me on the hill was NOT just a result of my weight, i think something went horribly wrong.
Ok, no more whinging...hope all's well in your neck of the woods.
Ok, my boyfriend just read this blog and he's not happy. See, the thing is he's been pestering me to let him take over my training methods, because apparently I'm not doing things right and if he was running the show then I'd be sure to have lost weight by now. So now that me and my friend are doing this checking up on each other thing he's mad that I wouldn't do it with him but I'll do it with her. I JUST DON'T NEED THIS PRESSURE!!!! I can't let him into this part of my life because I can't handle his attitude, his "I'll show you how it's done, I can make you lose weight, I'm good at this and you're not" attitude. I don't need it because quite frankly it pisses me off! He doesn't understand that telling me all this makes me feel like he thinks that I am not going to reach my goals if I don't just give up and let him tell me what to do. I don't know if anyone out there understands what I'm saying, but I'm too angry from trying to reassure him that this is really the right decision for me. Ok, an example of how bad it would be if I actually allowed him to become my exercise buddy. We have a circuit that runs behind our home. It's a really nice walk as it is in the nature reserve. This circuit that I actually discovered myself, and that I have walked on my own on many an occassion actually runs up a few hilly sections, so is quite tough, at least for me. So me and B for boy went out walking there this one morning and we start to climb. B for boy is quite a bit fitter than I am so he's going for gold on the hills and I'm trying to keep up, I don't want to lag behind, and he's pushing me even more, telling me to hurry up. I don't know what happened but all of a sudden my lungs got really hot and tight and my heart was tripping, I couldn't catch hold of my breath no matter how hard I tried and my back felt like someone had put a sack of rocks on it. B for boy thought I was just having a fat attack, he didn't even slow down for a second, thought I was just unfit and needed to be pushede a bit more. I don't know if I agree with this because I was fresh out of the gym and I'd done the circuit before. This did not feel like anything normal, it felt like something serious was going on. Turns out when I spoke to a friend about it she said the symptoms matched those of a panic attack! I don't know if this is true either but I KNOW my body did not feel like that because I was fat and couldn't hack it I KNOW this. So after this incident understandably I didn't want to do anymore exercise related activities with B for boy because I did not want to be in this situation again. I felt like he thought there couldn't have been any other explanation apart from my weight and he didn't even slow down to find out if I was alright...I don't need this from a training partner. So this is one of the reasons I do not want hime for a trainer. That and the fact that he kept saying to me "I hope that you lose weight and become fit so that that never happens again, I want to be able to do things with my girlfriend not just sit around cos she's unfit" or something to that effect. It really irks me that he thinks this of me he never seems to notice any fitness gains that I have made and to my dying day I shall testify that what happened to me on the hill was NOT just a result of my weight, i think something went horribly wrong.
Ok, no more whinging...hope all's well in your neck of the woods.
posted by tash at 9:47 PM
1 Comments:
Wow that sounds pretty serious - I can understand totally what you mean about not wanting him to be a part of your weightloss after that... I wish I had some good advice to give you... maybe just ignore him and do what you intended, he'll get the hint, and make sure you point the progress you HAVE made!
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