Have been a little sick lately, so not been to the gym. I have been so used to making the gym my first port of call in the morning that not being able to go kind of left me feeling like something was missing. I'm getting over the cold that I had, so I'm sure the few days of rest are doing me some good. I got the best nights sleep yesterday and woke up feeling so refreshed. It was great. I'm really finding the blogging thing hard at the moment. I feel like I have nothing significant to say but then I realise that not participating in blogging means that I don't get any of the benefits that come with blogging i.e motivation, friendship, support, laughs, stress relief etc. So I'm going to have to work a way to get a few blogs in during the week and hopefully get back into the swing of things.
Lets see how this works out over the next few weeks.

Freedom

I have issues, heaps of them but today I shall blog of one that has been troubling me a lot lateley.
I have been told on many occassions by this one person that I am very close to that I have this habit. My habit according to this source is that I have the knack for blaming everyone else for my negative emotions eg. anger, sadness and not taking any responsibilities for anything myself. i.e according to source I should be able to not let other people affect my moods, e.g if someone says something rude, or is being insensitive I can choose to react in a positive mood, i.e not get angry. Said source seems to live by this philosophy, only in reverse, as in source is allowed to get angry at other people, but if source does something that another person finds offensive then it's not sources' problem because this person should have chosen to react better, i.e not be offendend. I don't know if this is clear to anyone, if I am explaining this right. Anyway, my whole point is that I do not know how someone in their right mind can choose to ignore someone elsels suffering, choose to absolve themself of any wrongdoing. I don't know what kind of mind believes that they are so above it all that they are untouchable and therefore do not take any responsibility for how they make other people feel. Said person of course when confronted with any possible wrongdoing will invariably respond with "that's your problem, deal with it, it's got nothing to do with me".
Ok, call me crazy, but I do not believe this is right at all, to make it so that you absolve yourself of any wrongdoing. I can only imagine this type of freedom, the freedom to believe that one is always right, that one can do no wrong and truly believe it without a shadow of a doubt. It would be so nice not to feel guilty when you hurt someone, because being a citizen of this land of no wrongdoing and not accepting responsibility would mean you were blind to all the repurcussions.
Freedom, is it the right to choose to be happy about something when you really aren't, or is it the freedom to ignore how you make others feel because they should be evolved enough to choose to be happy when they really aren't?
Sorry for the strange blog, have had a very taxing day. Off to see if any of you fared better than I did.

MIA

Has been a while since I blogged for myself although I've been visiting everyone elses blogs on the sly. Just haven't been feeling too good, migrains, TOM, and just generally trying to work out a few things and also applying for a new job, which always seems to take up all my waking hours when I'm not at work.
So, quicky updates so far. I think I may have lost a bit of weight, but again I'm not willing to weigh myself just yet cos I don't like scales much so I'll give it a miss. I did pretty good at the gym this week 5 days out of 7, which is a new milestone for me as I usually do 3 before conveniently forgetting to wake up in time to go to the gym. I also upped my weights at pump class today, not that I was going heavy in the first place so I actually have a lot of room to move, just that I never thought my knees would take the strain as they are usually quite painfull. After a lot of debating, I decided I'd up my weights anyway and deal with the consequences later. So far so good, not too much pain so happy about that. On the food front, I have been in a good place lately. I have developed the clean eating theory, which I follow about 80% of the time, leaving me guilt free when I do decide to indulge. This means that I eat mainly unprocessed foods, wholemeal bread, yogurt, fruit, tuna (mmmhh), chicken, all the usuals most of the time, then when I indulge, I try and make sure that it's something I really want, say a glass of red wine, a slice of cake. Also trying to increase my veggie intake, so been having lots of veggies with my meals. I like this way of eating cos I don't feel restricted, and it seems to be working.

My plans are to continue as I have been, because for now this works. I feel healthier, happier and stronger both mentally and physically than I have in a long while.
So sorry about my sporadic blogging, I guess it's just one other thing I will need to work on.

Easy like Sunday morning

I didn't do much today, infact I did nothing at all. I slept in, I had breakfast, I took a nap, I watched Tv, I read up on some blogs, I drank multiple cups of nice warm milky tea. I loved it! I think this is the perfect way to spend a grey, rainy sunday morning. B for boy was out playing golf at 7.30am as he is part of the representative team at his golf club so I got to spend this gorgeous day by myself. I'm kind of a loner so I actually look forward to days when I can spend time doing whatever it is that I want to do.
Winter is coming up here in the good old land of Aus. It's starting to get a little windier, a bit more rainy, a lot darker in the mornings, which plays havock with my waking up reserves in the morning. Everytime the alarm goes off I wake up to this dark room and I can't stand it, it's a bit depressing, but good for sleeping in. Which means it's probably time for a diet change. No more glorious fresh salads to cool the palate, instead it's going to be yummy, homemade soups with glorious names such as chicken and spinach in spicy coconut broth, roast duck and sweet potato soup, chicken laksa...I love winter food. I know a lot of people say they put on weight during winter because of all the heavy comfort food that tends to be eaten, but for me I think it could be the opposite. I mightn't lose any weight but I don't think I'll put it on, winter seems a little optimistic for me in the weightloss stakes and for this reason I can't wait for the season to settle into it. Besides, I love all those woolly jumpers and boots and long skirts and scarves, I like winter but I will still winge about the cold, so expect that alot.
ok, enough of me rambling, hope you all have a productive week.

Who me?!!....you sure bout that?

G'day!!
Has been a while since I last blogged and I have been feeling quite guilty about that. Spent a few minutes going through everyones blogs and I'm glad that everyone is doing really well. So, about my new exciting development in my life. Well, as you may or may not know, I have been looking for new jobs as I am dissatisfied with my current situation at my work at the moment. So, I took a chance and wrote to this company that I was interested in working for as they do exactly what I have a huge interest in. Funnily enough, they were actually pretty impressed with my resume and even if they were not hiring at the moment, they still wanted to meet with me, I guess to confirm whether I really was as fabulous as my resume said I was. Meanwhile I on the other hand was left sitting there gaping at my email unable to comprehend that these people were actually interested in me, I guess the self doubt had a lot to do with that. So anyway, a few emails back and forth and a meeting date was established. I was to meet with the regional services manager for a company that has a lot to do with assisted reproduction for infertile couples plus a bit of genetics...let's just say for me I was in heaven. So all of last week I was fretting about the interview, trying to study up on my basic genetics and reproduction just so I wouldn't come off looking like a total idiot if I was asked any technical questions.
The meeting went really good...1hr later they were still impressed even after they had a talk with me. This is a good thing cos now I was sure that they hadn't just mixed up my resume with someone elses only to come down all this way and meet a total dud. I was quite pleased that they liked me. Only problem as I mentioned earlier is that they are not hiring at the moment but may be within a few weeks or months so that this initial meeting with me was just to test the waters because chances are that if they were impressed with me then if a vacancy were to arise then I would be the one to call.
So I didn't stuff up my big opportunity. And even if no one else sees it as a big opportunity, for me it was. Firstly I was given back a sense of worthiness because they actually noticed me out of who knows how many people have written to them. Secondly they were impressed with me not just on paper but in person as well, so I write and speak good. Thirdly, it's just given me a great confidence boost, I feel like I have the power to make things happen for me careerwise and that I don't have to be stuck in a situation that is less than pleasant as I am at the moment. So if I don't hear back from these guys, then at least I know that I have to keep trying and eventually something will pan out...right?
So i've spilled the beans, sorry if it wasn't too exciting, but this sure blew some wind up my skirt!