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Been feeling a bit boring lately, I don't have much new going on for me at the moment. I have been pretty ordinary this week. I have however started on a new bid to allow myself to be able to save some mula because I never seem to get past my first week of pay with money still in the bank. Because B for boy is really techno savvy and quite financially adept, he made up a spread sheet for me on excel that would allow me to chart all my spendings and all my savings. I have worked out that I could actually save a lot every month if I actually stuck to a budget instead of doing everything on impulse like I usually do.
I also noticed that having this money spreadsheet works exactly like having a food diary. If you don't want to have physical evidence of how much you have splurged then just don't splurge. I'm thinking maybe it's time to get back on the food diary bandwagon as well cos I'm definitely dragging by the wayside on this one.
Purl_princess's blog about trigger weights was a bit of an eyeopener for me. I found it very confronting and I didn't enjoy that. I guess part of being grossly overweight is denial, because you still have people around you who love you then you protect yourself in their love. This also goes hand in hand with telling yourself that it doesn't matter what other people think of you, but sometimes that's just a cover. I really want to lose the weight, to be comfortable within myself and just to live my life to its fullest unlike what I'm doing now. But I am really scared that it won't happen so I guess maybe I don't try as hard as I could. In my family, I took after my mom, who is a lot more impulsive and indulgent than my dad is. My sister got my dads' discipline, focus and drive. Discipline, focus and drive are words that do not exist in my vocabulary and I think that without these characteristics, my weightloss will be difficult to achieve.
I am at my trigger weight at the moment, I realize what I have to do to get where I need to do but I'm scared, and I'm not working hard at either eating right or exercising. I don't know how to stay focused and motivated to achieve my goals. Maybe one of you out there can help?
I also noticed that having this money spreadsheet works exactly like having a food diary. If you don't want to have physical evidence of how much you have splurged then just don't splurge. I'm thinking maybe it's time to get back on the food diary bandwagon as well cos I'm definitely dragging by the wayside on this one.
Purl_princess's blog about trigger weights was a bit of an eyeopener for me. I found it very confronting and I didn't enjoy that. I guess part of being grossly overweight is denial, because you still have people around you who love you then you protect yourself in their love. This also goes hand in hand with telling yourself that it doesn't matter what other people think of you, but sometimes that's just a cover. I really want to lose the weight, to be comfortable within myself and just to live my life to its fullest unlike what I'm doing now. But I am really scared that it won't happen so I guess maybe I don't try as hard as I could. In my family, I took after my mom, who is a lot more impulsive and indulgent than my dad is. My sister got my dads' discipline, focus and drive. Discipline, focus and drive are words that do not exist in my vocabulary and I think that without these characteristics, my weightloss will be difficult to achieve.
I am at my trigger weight at the moment, I realize what I have to do to get where I need to do but I'm scared, and I'm not working hard at either eating right or exercising. I don't know how to stay focused and motivated to achieve my goals. Maybe one of you out there can help?
posted by tash at 8:09 PM
4 Comments:
Hi tash
I linked to you through Purl's blog and just wanted to come and offer you some encouragement.
Something I always tell myself is that no matter what we do...time is still going by. Time you cannot get back. You can choose to keep doing what you've been doing and expect the same results or you can change what you've done in the past and maybe have a new, happier, more fulfilled life. What have you got to lose. We don't need to be stereo-typed by our parents genetics, you are still you, you have the ability to lose all the weight you want and keep it off. This is YOU! Strong, successful woman. You need to believe that you can do this and start by taking one step at a time. I don't know how much you want to lose but I know that it is hard. But choosing to get it done is the first step..and not beating yourself up if you screw up. Just pick yourself up and keep going.
I believe you can do this, get a good support group going, consider places like weight watchers who have a huge success rate, and check out some success stories, lots of them are bloggers and in Australia.
Check this one out
http://healthbites.blogspot.com
That is Mary and she lives in Australia and has made it to her goal weight.
Good luck!!!!
Hi Tash - thank you for your kind words on my blog. I really appreciate it.
Michelle puts it all very well - she's clever isn't she?
You definitely have me and all the other bloggers out there for support. You can definitely do this!
The only advice or suggesting I can offer is this: you really have to want to do this. There is no one or nothing that is going to make you otherwise...
no problem tash
Listen..whenever you need support, I will gladly give it, and so will many others. You can totally do this!
Have a great day :)
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